Why didn't i studied harder ?
That was the question which was on my mind all day long .
Idk why only today i started asking myself this question .
Maybe because i asked my friend about what he wanted to
be after his attachment ended & well he got quite a few plans .
I told him i wanted to be a steward .
Pros : high pay
Cons : won't have enough time for my family
What if i've my own family by then ?
I can't be with them if there anything happens . *touchwood*
Then he gave me his past exp for the previous tries he went .
Requirements for being a steward ?
Must complete NS , at least a 165cm (i think) , pass O levels or diploma .
Next problem , education .
The biggest obstacle i'm facing now would be my education level .
Every mother fucking thing needs at least a diploma .
Even if its not a diploma , its an O level cert .
What do i have ?
None of the above .
I only have PSLE , N Level , an epic fail O Level cert & soon my nitec cert .
40 points for my O Level btw .
I still can make a joke out of it & get 5 'likes' 9 comments .
Ok so if i can go in poly , i want take Hospitality & Tourism Managment
or Leisure & Resort Managment .
Its impossible for me to take it unless i go re-take my O's .
Pfft so mother fucking annoying .
Choices left after my NS are : go for higer nitec , re-take O's or private diploma .
Chances of me re-taking my O's are very slim though .
If i wanted to re-take i would have done so past year lol .
Once you screw up something in your education life , you're fucked .
Gotta start from zero or you just continue the fuck up life you have .
If only i didn't meet you , my life would have been better .
My results would have been better .
But who else to blame for my choices besides myself ?
If only i could just go back to sec 3 .
IF ONLY ~
When was the last time i actually put in the effort to write down my thoughts ?
Melvin here , signing off .
